no, this isn't okay

It feels like everything is fucked up. I have friends that I can trust on, but I dont. I have friends who hopefully loves me, but Im probably the worst friend ever. Dont have time to be with them and I get now a days very easily irritated on them. Everything is about to change. Im loosing the other half of me in 1 month. So much people that I wont ever see again. So many friends that I wont meet as often as now. Decisions that I cant make. To continue or not. I have already decided but Im crying about all the friends Im gonna lose. Shit, I hates this. Dont even know what to think or say about it. Im addicted to facebook and jersey shore. One day without one of them makes me crazy and on a bad mood. Dont feel like doing anything, not from school to talking to friends. I want to go to the gym to get more in fit, but Im to lazy. Too lazy to do anything. My life is a mess, but whos isn't. Have daily head ache but I still dont complain. I just wanna sleep and forget the world. Sleep until Im my self. Guess some things changes how you want to live. It feels like Im lying all the time, though Im speaking the truth. Dont know what to think about persons and how to act around them. I want to do so much, that I forget to be with friends. The ones who brings out the best of me. Dont even know whats wrong right now, I just feel bad. It feels like Im doing everything wrong.